03APRIL2017

HONESTLY SPEAKING, I HAVE NO IDEA WHETHER I'M REALLY LOVING MY CURRENT CAREER OR NOT. SO MUCH THINGS HAPPENED FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS. TAKING MCS AFTER MCS. YET WE HAVE TIGHT LIMITATION OF MCS WHICH WE CAN TAKE PER YEAR. WE ARE WORKING ON AIR, NOT ON GROUND. WITH DIFFERENT ALTITUDE, DIFFERENT OXYGEN LEVEL ETC. HOW IS IT POSSIBLE FOR US TO NOT FALL SICK EASILY. WE HAVE TO TAKE REALLY GOOD CARE OF OURSELVES IN ORDER TO SAVE OUR MCS TILL THE END OF THE YEAR AND BRING FORWARD TO THE NEXT YEAR. LIFE CAN NEVER BE EASY. IF YOU WANT TO EARN MUCH, YOU HAVE TO SACRIFICE. I ALWAYS THOUGHT I LOVE WHAT I'M DOING CURRENTLY BUT I JUST FOUND OUT MY INNER SELF DOESN'T THINK THAT WAY. WHY? I REALLY WISH I KNOW WHY. I'M TIRED OF SERVING PASSENGER? I'M TIRED OF FAKING A SMILE WITH OTHER CREW? I WANT TO KNOW EXACTLY WHY. BEING A CABIN CREW AIN'T AS EASY, AS FUN AS EVERYONE THOUGHT IT MAY SEEM TO BE. HANDLING STRESS GIVEN BY SENIOR CREW, BEING AS A SENIOR CREW - HAVE TO SHOW GOOD ATTITUDE TOWARDS MY WORK AS WELL. BEING A JUNIOR CREW, EVERY SENIOR WILL TALK ON YOUR BACK. LIVING THE HIGH LIFE WHICH IS EVERYONE'S DREAM. BUT I'M GETTING TIRED OF THIS HIGH LIFE AND I REALLY WISH I CAN LEAVE BUT I DON'T KNOW WHETHER IS IT MY HEART TELLING ME NOT TO LEAVE OR IS IT MY MIND ASKING ME TO STAY. JUST BASICALLY WORKING IN A TURNAROUND AIRLINE, I'M ALREADY FEELING SO STRESSFUL YET I DON'T EVEN REALIZE HOW MUCH I HAVE CHANGED FOR THE PAST ONE YEAR AFTER BEING A CABIN CREW.IS THIS WHAT I REALLY WANT, I DON'T KNOW. LISTED OUT MY DREAM JOBS, I HAVE COMPLETED HALF OF MY CABIN CREW DREAM, IS IT TIME TO MOVE ON TO ANOTHER DREAM JOB? 5 MORE MONTH TO DECIDE WHETHER IF I SHOULD CONTINUE STAYING IN THIS HIGH-LIFE CAREER OR SHOULD I DO SOMETHING ELSE INSTEAD. THIS HIGH-LIFE CAREER SEEM TO KILLED ME MILLION TIMES SECRETLY.YES, WHY DO I NEED TO EARN SO MUCH MONEY? WHAT'S THE POINT? BEING A CABIN CREW IS ONE OF MY DREAM JOB YET IT'S NOT THE FIRST DREAM JOB WHICH I HAVE THOUGHT OF SINCE YOUNG. I'M LUCKY ENOUGH TO BE ABLE TO JOIN THIS CAREER DESPITE I HAVE HEART CONDITION. HOW MUCH I YEARN TO BE AN SIA CABIN CREW BUT I DOUBT I CAN EVEN GET IN WITH MY BURDENSOME HEART CONDITIONS. SO WHAT IF IT HAS BEEN CURED AND RECOVERED? 99.99% IT WILL NOT RELAPSE. BUT WILL SIA EVEN ACCEPT ME, WITH MY SURGICAL SCARS AND MEDICAL HISTORY. HOW ABOUT TRYING OUT OTHER AIRLINES RIGHT? I DO WANT TO FULFIL MY NEXT HALF OF MY CABIN CREW DREAM: LAYOVER AIRLINE CABIN CREW. IT MIGHT BE WORST THAN MY CURRENT LIFE BUT YET I GET TO LAYOVER(WHICH IS VERY TIRING). 5 MORE MONTH TILL I TAKE MY DIPLOMA AND I'M GONNA TRY OUT OTHER LAYOVER AIRLINE AND MAKE SURE I STAY UNTIL THE BOND END AND I'M DONE WITH MY CABIN CREW (HIGH)LIFE. AFTER BEING A CABIN CREW, IT'S TIME TO CHANGE MY CAREER AND BE A BRIDAL MAKE-UP HAIRSTYLIST ARTIST. IF YOU NEVER TRY, YOU NEVER KNOW. EVERY JOB HAS ITS PROS AND CONS. SINCE I HAVE ALREADY TRIED THE HIGH LIFE, ITS TIME TO TRY SOMETHING FUN AND DIFFERENT. TIRED OF ODD-TIMINGS, TIRED OF PUTTING ON MAKE UP AND CONTACT LENS FOR WORK EVERYDAY, TIRED OF HARMING MY OWN HAIR AND SKIN WITH ALL THE HARMFUL PRODUCTS. TIRED OF FAKING A SMILE WITH CREW WHOM I DON'T EVEN LIKE TO WORK WITH.