05AUGUST2018

FINALLY I'M BACK AGAIN. YES I'M STILL ALIVE AND KICKING. I HAVE BEEN SO BUSY EVER SINCE I STARTED SCHOOLING ON MAY..EVERYDAY RUSH ASSIGNMENTS, STUDY, EXAMS, QUIZ, FLIGHTS.. AND GUESS WHAT? WHICH GENIUS CHIONG FLIGHTS AND ENDED UP TORN HER OWN WRIST LIGAMENT. WOW BRAVO JOANNE. RED EYE ILLNESS PLUS MY WRIST INJURY IS REALLY KILLING ME. LOST MY LONG FLIGHTS DUE TO GROUNDED IN OFFICE.. BUT OH WELL, IT IS A GOOD TIME FOR ME TO STUDY IN THE OFFICE I GUESS. 0830-1730 HAHAHAHAH OKAY ANYWAYS, HECTIC LIFESTYLE AS USUAL. JUST ENDED MY LEAVE RECENTLY AND HERE COME MY INJURY.这个月喝西北风了咯。。 I HAVE BEEN AWAY FROM SINGAPORE FOR 4 DAYS ALONE IN KL. IT HAS BEEN A VERY GOOD EXPERIENCE. TRAVELLED TO KL ALONE IS SO FUN! SO BASICALLY I WENT TO KL TO LOOK FOR MY COUSIN AND ALSO MY FAVORITE BAOBAO JANEEEEEE. I MISS HER SO MUCH! THANKFUL TO HAVE THEM TOURING ME AROUND IN KL AND OF COS I WENT ALL OVER KL BY MYSELF AS WELL. EATING EVERYTHING EVERY SINGLE DAY AND TRAVELLING TO PLACES VIA THE LRT AND MRT IS SO MUCH FUN. DEFINITELY GOING BACK KL NEXT TIME. TO BE HONEST, I REALLY WANNA KNOW WHAT DOES THE OFFICE PEOPLE DO IN THE OFFICE. WHAT CAN THEY DO?! I MEAN EVEN NOW, I FELT THE PAINFUL SENSATION IN MY WRIST. I DON'T KNOW WHAT CAN I EVEN DO FOR THEM MAN... PLEASE BE GOOD TO ME...... OKAY I'M OFF FOR NOW!

13FEBRUARY2018

"IF YOU HAVE THAT MENTALITY OF GOING WORK WITH SOMETHING BAD GONNA HAPPEN, THEN IT WILL HAPPEN. BECAUSE YOU WILL BE SO CAUTIOUS BOUT EVERYTHING AND ENDED UP YOU SCREWED EVERYTHING UP. YOU WOULDN'T KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN, THUS YOU OVERTHINK" THANK YOU FOR THIS PHRASE. IT KEPT ME GOING. I THINK THIS IS REALLY GREAT AND IT'S TRUE. I WILL DEFINITELY GO TO WORK WITH A NEUTRAL MENTALITY AND MOOD. I WILL STOP BEING NICE TO PEOPLE WHO DON'T EVEN APPRECIATE ME. BECAUSE I ONCE TOLD MYSELF TO BE EVEN NICER TO PEOPLE WHO IS MEAN TO ME. BUT I REALIZE NOWADAYS HUMAN DON'T APPRECIATE SUCH EFFORT. THUS, I WANT TO BE NICE TO PEOPLE WHO RESPECT ME AND BE THE MOST "ZAPPY" CREW EVER TO THOSE WHO DON'T EVEN RESPECT AND APPRECIATE MY KINDNESS. NO POINT BEING NICE TO PEOPLE WHO DOESN'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO APPRECIATE. THEY DESERVE THE WORST TREATMENT EVER.

10FEBRUARY2018

BEING A CABIN CREW WAS MY DREAM JOB SINCE THE AGE OF 7. EVEN THOUGH I HAVE PHOBIA TOWARDS TAKING PLANE, BUT I REALLY ADMIRE CABIN CREW WORKING ONBOARD. THEIR SERVICE MADE ME FEEL HAPPY DURING THE CRUISING PERIOD AND ALSO BEFORE TAKE OFF, AFTER LANDING. THEIR HARD WORK WERE GREATLY APPRECIATED. I NEVER ONCE THOUGHT OF SAYING A SIMPLE THANK YOU CAN ACTUALLY MAKE SUCH A HUGE DIFFERENCE TO THEIR DAY. UNTIL THE DAY WHEREBY I PERSONALLY EXPERIENCED AS A CABIN CREW, I REALIZE HOW THANKFUL IT IS, TO HEAR SOMEONE BEING APPRECIATIVE AND SINCERELY THANK YOU AFTER WHATEVER YOU HAVE DONE BY THE END OF THE DAY.

09FEBRUARY2018

BAD FLIGHTS COME WHENEVER I DECIDED TO STAY ON FOR AWHILE MORE. THIS JOB IS REALLY DRIVING ME INSANE. AS MUCH AS I WANT TO STAY, I WANT TO LEAVE TOO. BUT I WANT TO PROVE TO EVERYONE THAT, NOT EVERY YOUNG PEOPLE QUIT WHEN THEY FACED DIFFICULTIES. DON'T THINK WE ARE PUSHOVERS. JUST BECAUSE WE KEPT MUM, DOESN'T MEAN WE ARE AFRAID OF YOU. JUST BECAUSE WE RESPECT YOU, DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN CLIMB ON TOP OF US. I AM GETTING SO SICK AND TIRED OF FAKING A SMILE EVERYDAY IN THIS JOB. BE IT TO THE PASSENGERS OR TOWARDS THE SENIORS AND JUNIORS. WHY IS IT SO DIFFICULT TO BE HARSH TO THEM. I APOLOGIZE BECAUSE I'M IN WRONG. BUT I APOLOGIZE EVEN WHEN I'M RIGHT TOO. WHAT IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE NOWADAYS? SO WHAT IF YOU HAVE HIGH STANDARD IN EVERYONE? NOT AS IF EVERY SINGLE SOUL CAN MEET THAT REQUIREMENTS WHICH YOU HAVE. MY PATIENT LIMIT IS REALLY LIMITED NOW. I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH LONGER CAN I TANK BEFORE I ACTUALLY LOSE MY PATIENCE ONE DAY AND THERE GOES MY "REPUTATION". HONESTLY SPEAKING, I HATE THIS JOB SO SO MUCH NOW. ALL I WANT TO STAY WAS BECAUSE OF THE MONEY, THE EXPERIENCE AND ALSO THOSE GOOD CREW WHO MADE ME REALLY WANT TO STAY IN THIS AIRLINE.

23JANUARY2018

TIME PASSES SO QUICKLY JUST IN A BLINK OF AN EYE. 1 MONTH HAS PASSED AND I FELT THAT, I HAVE YET TO DO ANYTHING IN 2018. ALL I DID WAS WORK WORK WORK. I DON'T EVEN HAVE THE TIME TO MEET UP WITH MY FRIENDS, EXERCISE ETC. EVERYDAY JUST WORK, STUDY, SLEEP, REPEAT. SOMEONE HELP ME PLEASE. MY 2 YEARS IS COMING CLOSE TO ME. SHOULD I LEAVE OR SHOULD I STAY. I AM SO FICKLE-MINDED. I WANT TO LEAVE YET I WANT TO STAY. EXAMS COMING IN ONE WEEK TIME. STUDYING IS BACK TO THE DRIVE. SO MUCH THINGS TO DO YET SO LIMITED TIME. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? AS TIME PASSES, MORE PEOPLE QUITTING AND MORE NEW FACES COMING TOO. BEING MORE AND MORE SENIOR IS GOOD AND BAD. I MISS BEING THE MOST JUNIOR AND THE YOUNGEST IN THIS AIRLINE.

17DECEMBER2017

I HAVE THE STRONG TEMPTATION THAT URGE ME TO QUIT THIS JOB ASAP. CURRENTLY WAITING FOR MARCH TO MAKE UP THAT 2 YEARS BEFORE I LEAVE. BUT THESE 3 MONTHS JUST SIMPLY PASS SO SLOW AND NOTHING WENT RIGHT RECENTLY. BECAUSE OF ONE BAD FLIGHT THAT MAKES ME FELT SO DEMORALIZED. THIS JOB IS REALLY DESTROYING ME. BE IT PHYSICALLY OR MENTALLY. PERHAPS I HAVE BEEN HIDING EVERYTHING TO MYSELF FOR TOO LONG, THAT WHATEVER HAPPENED TO ME NOW, JUST CRASHED ME SO BADLY. I LOST MY PATIENCE, I LOST MY MOTIVATION FOR WORK, I LOST EVERYTHING. I GAVE UP EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE JUST FOR MY JOB. BUT IN RETURN, I'M GETTING CRITICIZED BY CREW ETC. SOMETIMES I DON'T KNOW WHY AM I DOING THESE TO MYSELF. I TOLD MYSELF NOT TO GET AFFECTED BY WHAT OTHERS SAID AND THINK ABOUT ME. BUT SOMETIMES, IS REALLY TOUGH. WHEN THE TIME FINALLY CAME FOR ME TO LEAVE THIS JOB, GOOD FLIGHTS WILL COME ALONG AND IT'S GONNA MAKE ME CHANGE MY MIND AGAIN. I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF I SHOULD STAY ON OR LEAVE, AFTER WHATEVER THAT HAS JUST HAPPENED. P.S. LATE NIGHT THOUGHTS