06MARCH2016 - Before Training officially starts

BEFORE THE START OF TRAINING TOMORROW,TRUTHFULLY I HAVE MIXED FEELINGS TOWARDS MEETING NEW COLLEAGUES TOMORROW. IT FEEL AS THOUGH THE FIRST TIME I'M ENTERING ITE COLLEGE. IT'S AN UNEXPLAINABLE FEELING, IT FEELS EVEN MORE DIFFERENT. DURING SCHOOLING,SCHOOL REOPEN HAS ALWAYS BEEN MY PHOBIA. GOING TO A NEW CLASS, GETTING TO KNOW NEW MATES, IS REALLY TOUGH. BUT AT LEAST I KNOW, DURING THE PAST 12 YEARS BEING A STUDENT, I HAVE SOMEONE I KNOW, ALWAYS BEING WITH ME THROUGHOUT THESE 12 YEARS, ALFIE. ALFIE HAS BEEN A GREAT PILLAR OF STRENGTH TO ME THROUGHOUT MY ENTIRE PRIMARY, SECONDARY AND ITE PERIOD. ALTHOUGH WE DON'T REALLY TALK TO EACH OTHER, BUT I FEEL SAFE TO HAVE HIM BEING WITH ME.IT IS QUITE A PITY TO ACTUALLY GO ON A SEPERATE WAY WITH SOMEONE I'VE KNOWN FOR SO MANY YEARS. BUT IN FUTURE WE WILL STILL LEAVE EACH OTHER SO IT'S POINTLESS. STUDENTS ARE DIFFERENT FROM WORKING COLLEAGUES. STUDENTS ARE MORE PURE, THEY CAN BE SPOILED AT TIMES BUT THEY ARE GREAT. I HAVE BEEN HURT DEEPLY THROUGHOUT MY STUDENT LIFE.TO ME,BEING A STUDENT WASN'T EASY. MEETING DIFFERENT TYPE OF CLASSMATES, FRIENDS ETC. I JUST HOPE MY COLLEAGUES WILL BE GOOD. I TOTALLY CAN'T IMAGINE WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN DURING THE 3 MONTH TRAINING AND 9 MONTH PROBATION. CAN I EVEN LAST FOR 5 YEARS 3 MONTH..? IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN MY DREAM SINCE YOUNG. PERHAPS IT'S EVERY GIRL'S DREAM TO BE ONE. BEFORE I WENT FOR THE INTERVIEWS, I ASKED MYSELF , AM I READY FOR IT? CAN I DO A GOOD JOB IN IT? CAN I EVEN GET THROUGH THE FIRST ROUND OF INTERVIEWS TILL THE LAST? AND YES I DID IT. WHEN I RECEIVED THE EMAIL REGARDING MEDICAL CHECK-UP, I FELT REALLY HAPPY. BUT DURING THE PERIOD OF TIME WHEN I WAS WAITING FOR THE MEDICAL REPORT TO BE OUT, THAT REALLY TESTED MY PATIENCE AND ENDURANCE. I DIDN'T GET NOTIFIED VIA EMAIL BUT GOTTEN MISSED CALLS FROM THE COMPANY. I THOUGHT NEGATIVELY INITIALLY BUT IT TURNED OUT TO BE GOOD NEWS FROM THEM! I HAVE NEVER FELT THAT SENSED OF HAPPINESS IN MY ENTIRE LIFE BEFORE. BUT KNOWING THAT, I KNOW I DON'T HAVE MUCH TIME LEFT TO SPEND WITH FRIENDS AND FAMILY. 5 YEARS. AM I READY FOR IT? CAN I COMPLETE THESE 5 YEARS? CAN I EVEN PASS THE TRAINING TESTS? I FELT SO UNPREPARED ABOUT TOMORROW BUT I REALLY HOPE THAT I CAN DO IT. TO BE CONTINUED.... DAY 1 TRAINING WILL BE SHARED TOMORROW. STAY TUNED!