23OCTOBER2017

AS I GROW OLDER, STARTING TO BECOME A WORKAHOLIC. I FORGOTTEN ALL ABOUT MY BIRTHDAY. I FORGOTTEN BOUT HOW BLESSED I AM WHENEVER MY BIRTHDAY COMES. INSTEAD, I FEEL SAD AND STARTED TO SHED TEARS BEFORE EVERY NIGHT OF BIRTHDAY AND ON MY BIRTHDAY ITSELF. BIRTHDAY, USED TO BE SOMETHING WORTH TO CELEBRATE AND COMMEMORATE. BUT NOW, I JUST FELT THAT IT'S SUCH A BURDEN. BURDENSOME TO EVEN THINK BOUT HOW TO CELEBRATE. MY BIRTHDAY ALWAYS FALL ON THE DAY WHEREBY NOBODY IS FREE. EVERYONE JUST SIMPLY COMPLAIN ABOUT HOW TROUBLESOME IT IS. I HATE OCTOBER SO MUCH NOW. I WOULD RATHER WORK ON MY BIRTHDAY THAN HAVING AN OFF. MOST CREW WILL TEND TO REQUEST FOR OFF ON THEIR BIRTHDAY. ITS A BLESSING TO GET AN OFF ON YOUR BIRTHDAY. BUT I THINK FOR ME, HAVING AN OFF ON MY BIRTHDAY WOULD ACTUALLY MAKE ME FEEL MORE BURDENSOME. AT LEAST I WORK, I DON'T FEEL ANYTHING. IS THIS TELLING ME SOMETHING. 2ND YEAR CRYING BEFORE AND ON MY BIRTHDAY ITSELF. I FEEL HAPPIER TO WORK ON MY BIRTHDAY I GUESS. AT LEAST I DON'T HAVE FREE TIME TO STARE INTO SPACE, OVERTHINK, OR JUST SIMPLY WASTING MY TIME DOING NOTHING. I START TO SPEAK LESSER THAN I USED TO BE. SLOWLY.. STARTING TO PREFER ALONE TIME. I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME LATELY. 2017 SUPPOSED TO BE GOOD BUT NO, IT HAS BEEN SO BAD SINCE THE START OF THE YEAR. BASICALLY, ITS THE WORST YEAR EVER.